The Bringer of light

Back at last

2006-10-19T08:13:00.000-07:00

haaayyyyy.......

i guess i will have time posting to this blog again. It's been a long time since i've
been very busy with the school and all the stuff. Right now i'm just completing my requirements to be marked as "graduate".

oh, i'm very surprised. I am offered by our dean to teach on the first semester of 2007-2008. Right now i'm still thinking about it and if i'll be enrolling in a masteral or the cisco review.

DESIDERATA by Max Ehrmann

2005-10-25T00:49:00.000-07:00

It's been quite a long time since my high school times. Back then we were required to memorize some literary pieces. I guess this one's worth the read, check it out.

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

paranoia

2005-07-05T20:02:00.000-07:00

Is it just Bad Weather or is it Bad lUck?
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I guess i would accept bad weather for i don't really believe in bad luck that much.
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What happened to me just hours ago is negligence, lack of focus that is; Too many things can
happen in just a short span of time and as i found myself staring blankly at the rain through the
windows of the lrt going to cubao i then found out that i was already 1 station away. I ended up
rerouting back to cubao and losing much time waiting for the rain to lessen a bit. I remembered,
during that time, my mind is bothered by an unsettled conversation.
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Another mishap that i encountered is that i slipped going down the overpass on my way home.
I guess i bounced two or three times with my polo and slacks all wet from the rain. Right now i can
still feel the pain in my palm and legs. Still i figured out i wasn't focusing that much on the steps
for my mind is still roaming around, oh what a bad experience to end my day.
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Right now i'm trying to calm myself down, things are getting too much for me and i just can't control
being subjective over some issues. It's a good thing i have Norah Jones as my background music.

How am I?

2005-06-10T05:11:00.000-07:00

I guess im just FINE
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Freaked-Out
Insecure
Neurotic
Emotional
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Ahit pogi!

2005-06-02T10:55:00.000-07:00

bwakananginang razor yan! bakit ba kapag nag-aahit ako ay tila napakadaming kababalaghan at kamalasan ang nangyayari.
hmm oo bilog ang buwan kahapon, pero may aftershock ba yun?
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hmm it was very hard for me dito sa bahay when my tita asked me to come this saturday to quezon, i answered na may binabalak akong lakad this saturday kaya di ako makakasama. I never really knew kung bakit kami pupunta ng quezon at walang matitira sa bahay kaya nagulat ako ng duru-duruin ako ng tita ko at sumbatan.
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I then replied na hindi na lang ako lalakad ng sabado at sasama na lang ako sa quezon, pero hindi ko talaga matanggap yung authoritative approach nya kahit alam ko na normal na sa kanya yun being a breadwinner and a manager sa bangko.
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My point is pwede naman sabihin sakin ng maayos na may lakad ang pamilya at kailangan talagang andun ako, ayaw ko ng pinagtataasan ako ng boses at dinuduro. nahawa tuloy ako sa pagiging high blood nya at medyo tumaas din ang boses ko nung kausap ko ang tatay ko...
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i know it's harsh for them at di nila matanggap na i'm fighting for my right, for they never really listened.
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naalala ko tuloyyung sinermon samin nung prof ko sa mechanincs na di ko makalimutan: "if you wan't to earn respect, you must learn to listen!".
i hope in time they will...
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di pa natapos dun yung pagiging kakaiba ng araw na ito. kakaiba dahil may mga bagay akong natuklasan na kagila-gilalas at di mo inaakalang totoo. Merong bagay na nakakatakot merong ayaw mo ng mabalitaan merong masaya, fulfilling at meron ding tungkol sa away. Hmm sabi na nga ba at madami ang nadevelop nitong summer class, nagalit yung bf nung isa kong classmate kasi nalaman nyang may crush yung isa naming classmate.
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buti na lang talaga at balbon ako, kaya mabilis humaba ang aking balbas...
mabilis din sanang maayos ang lahat.
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kaya goodbye good 'ol razor, for you'll soon find yourself in the trash.

aftershock

2005-05-08T05:57:00.000-07:00

Is This Love
BOB MARLEY
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I wanna love you and treat you right;
I wanna love you every day and every night:
We'll be together with a roof right over our heads;
We'll share the shelter of my single bed;
We'll share the same room, yeah! - for Jah provide the bread.
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Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
I wanna know - wanna know - wanna know now!
I got to know - got to know - got to know now!
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I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I - I'm willing and able,
So I throw my cards on your table!
I wanna love you - I wanna love and treat -
love and treat you right;
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I wanna love you every day and every night:
We'll be together, yeah! - with a roof right over our heads;
We'll share the shelter, yeah, oh now! - of my single bed;
We'll share the same room, yeah! - for Jah provide the bread.
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Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
Is this love - is this love - is this love -
Is this love that I'm feelin'?
Wo-o-o-oah! Oh yes, I know; yes, I know - yes, I know now!
Yes, I know; yes, I know - yes, I know now!
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I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I - I'm willing and able,
So I throw my cards on your table!
See: I wanna love ya, I wanna love and treat ya -
love and treat ya right.
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I wanna love you every day and every night:
We'll be together, with a roof right over our heads!
We'll share the shelter of my single bed;
We'll share the same room, yeah! Jah provide the bread.
We'll share the shelter of my single bed

Figure Studies

2005-04-28T05:15:00.000-07:00

Whose pair of cheeks could this be?
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if you couldn't figrue out, click here
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NAPOCOR

2005-04-23T03:31:00.000-07:00

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I have the privilege to be able to visit the National Power Corporation diesel power plant in casiguran, aurora province. The plant superintendent invited us to spend the holy week in the place considering that i am an engineering student.
This is their new power plant which occupies a large area bounded by rice fields.
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Inside, there are 4 major structures:
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the building that houses two 500KW diesel generator,
a step-up transformer,
oil reservoir
and the quarters in which we stayed for the whole week.
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Currently they are supplying electricity in 4 areas in the province, and working on a 12-hour basis. Soon, they will be adding their old 750KW generator in the plant to be able to supply electricity within 24 hours.
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It is a nice experience being able to have an ocular inspection and having a discussion with the operators. The superintendent oriented me to the panel board and discussed its operation. This is the only time that i appreciate
the subject for i hate my Energy Conversion class because of our nasty professor. He didn't only prioritized EE students but also scrutinized the existence of ECE and Computer Engineering. I just wondered if he could operate the high-cost DMS2
equipment without the use of a Computer.
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Having seen the facilities, i came to think why the Napocor is having a great time paying their debts. According to them,Besides the corruption that is a trend in our government, the Napocor is the one financing the operation of the Independent
Power Producers but do not have a share in the revenues. Thus, they are spending a lot of money but are unable to return the investments and worst the consumers are paying more than what they should.

2 weeks

2005-04-22T09:58:00.000-07:00

it's what my colleagues said: evaluate
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........... now i'm trying to be optimistic!

350 kilometers away

2005-04-16T00:02:00.000-07:00

At last nakuha ko na ang mga pictures
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Dahil pagkatagal-tagal kong hinintay na makaipon ng film at pera pampascan hehehe. This is the holy week celebration at Casiguran, at the province of Aurora. Astig nga ngayon lang talaga ako nakakita ng nagpepenetensya kasi dati puro sa tv lang. muntik pa nga ako matalsikan ng mga dugo nila dahil andami nila. sila itong nagpanata sa birhen ng ermita na sabi nila ay naghihimala daw kaya tuwing mahal na araw ay napupuno ang bayan ng casiguran. Naging tradisyon na talaga ng mga katoliko lalo na dito sa pilipinas ang ganyang paraan ng pagpapasakit sa sarili. Minsan tuloy naisip ko, ano kaya ang masasabi ni kristo kung katabi nya ang mga yan? hahayaan kaya nyang magdusa ang mga ito gayung sinasabi na sinagot ni kristo ang kasalanan ng mga tao sa pagpapapako sa krus...
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Raquel

2005-04-12T21:46:00.000-07:00

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during the days na nanghihiram pako ng camera while self studying photography, kung ano-ano lang ang kinukunan ko ng picture. Madalas ko sya makita sa kinakainan naming carenderia at the back of our school malapit lang din kasi dun yung kanila. The good thing is hindi sya mahiyain at she's willing to have a shoot in exchange of prints.

take a bow

2005-04-11T23:36:00.000-07:00

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medyo matagal tagal na din kaming hindi nakakatugtog... hay namimiss ko na ulet gumimik. it's been 2 months from our last gig sa purple haze bar and cafe sa marikina, bagong bago yung banda and it's an experimental one. Experimental in a sense na hindi kami nag-stick sa usual na mood ng music. we mixed reggae and punk on the song "careless whisper" a slight variation on "the one you love" and a hard rock version of "take a bow?. So far may mga nakagusto naman nung mga arrangements namin sobrang busy lang ngayon yung bassist namen kaya hindi pa ulet kami nakakatugtog.
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the picture above is taken during the writer's night @ conspiracy bar, QC

Doggie Style Anyone?

2005-01-14T01:50:00.000-08:00

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No, this entry doesn't really tackle about sex positions. Hindi rin sex-olympics although sabi ng mge experts at proven na daw na sex is the best exercise, sabi nga sa isang commercial ng condom "having sex is like walking a hundred paces... be ready to climb the empire state building".
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Actually, nahalungkat ko lang ang mga archives ko and i still remember that this is my first roll of film na gamit ang SLR camera wherein you can controll the aperture and shutter speed. This is shot during the ont the spot photo contest of the Wrestling Association of the Philippines together with solaris film. Naaalala ko pa na ito talaga ang unang hawak ko sa SLR camera, with little knowlede on how it functions talagang sports pa ang napagtripan at sa photo contest pa. Bigla lang kasi akong tinawagan ng pinsan ko na isa ring photographer, tapos pinahiram nya ako ng manual focus na kamera and a very little flash. Talagang sapalaran kasi fully manual yung camera, that means i have to rotate three rings para maka-sure na may lalabas na picture pagkuha mo. Tapos there is very little ambient light na nanggagaling pa sa kisame ng 3rd floor, iso 100 yung film which is very slow, kaya marami sa mga shots ko ay blurred or madilim.
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I just did it for fun at shempre experience na din, tinawanan pa nga ako ng isang photographer nang magpaturo ako mag-rewind ng camera, ang mga gamit kasi nila ay puro automatic na and some were i guess can be considered "pro". Ano ba naman yung reg. fee na 100 pesos e may libre namang 2 rolls of 36-shots film parang yung film na lang talaga yung binayaran mo. Awa ng diyos, may nai-entry naman ako kahit hindi ako nanalo okay lang kasi ang nag 1st place ay yung pinsan ko na nagpahiram sakin ng camera and for that binigay nya sakin yung mga giveaway films.
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hehe, masaya talagang i-recall ang mga 1st time na kagaya nito. eto nga pala yung inentry ko:

lightbearer

2005-01-12T01:15:00.000-08:00

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it all started back when i was a 1st yr. engineering student. I always find myself roaming in the humanities section of the library. Maybe beacause it is the only part of the library with large drawing tables for our plates, of being surrounded by the people from the college of architecture and fine arts whom we raced with our mechanical drawings, or the people from artes bacallaureate whom we find always liberating.
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But one thing's for sure, it's the time that i got my first camera, a point and shoot one. I can only rely on its auto-focusing and those custom settings which i now call "idiot modes" hehehe. And consider that the humanities section have a myriad books on art and photography.
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I guess it runs in the family, i became aware about films since i was 9, that is because my uncle always brought his "slides" and portfolio each and everytime we meet. And most of the time, we are the subjects, be it portrait, candids and even landscape.
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now i have my very trusted friend, though he is much older than me, my mamiya camera is very reliable even without flash. I find it amusing to combine the tradition with new technology; just like a painter, only that my canvass is film, my brush is the camera and my paint is light.